This has been one of the weirdest summers I can remember. We're having the longest heat wave on record, it hasn't rained since June and vampire mosquitoes have taken over the earth. Nothing seems right anymore.. even things between Darren and me feel a little strange. Even though I adore Darren, there's been something missing between us. I gotta believe that Darren is feeling it too, if absence does really make the heart grow fonder.. maybe this time away will be good for the both of us.
I can't remember the last time I thought about Sasha. Things were totally over between us. Especially after our last disastrous meeting. Then why would I thought I saw him today? Did I get a total case of butterflies.. worst than the first time we met? It's been a long time since I felt the same way with Darren and all of a sudden.. I'm not missing Darren as much as I should.
It's one thing to daydream about seeing an old crush.. it's another thing to make out with him. This is horrible.. it's like I'm cheating on Darren with a daydream.
I wanted to crawl into a hole.
At that moment I knew that Dodie was wrong. I didn't want Sasha for a boyfriend, what I wanted were those feelings I had when I first met him. I wanted the electricity that comes with a new crush. That same excitement I used to feel whenever I was with Darren. But at that moment my feelings for Darren were never more real. Absence had made my heart grow more fond of Darren than ever before.
Maybe it takes something you used to want in you past to point out the goodness of what you have. Maybe we get bored with stuff because we put so much importance on things that are new and as soon as the novelty wares off we forget just what we liked about it in the first place. Nothing can ever stay the same so why do we expect it to? Instead we should just enjoy it for what it is without ever taking it for granted.
- Ginger.
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